Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Why am i losing soooo slow?

So i been getting kind of upset about how my weight loss has been stagnant! idk why i feel like its going soooo slow!!! Ive been working out hard and eating good choices yet i feel like i should be losing more weight! idk... but i realized i lost 5% of my original starting weight which was one of my goals so i accomplished that!! Also, i feel like i been more tempted to cheat but haven't actually gone through with it... and don't plan on it! I keep comparing my weight loss to the last time and thinking how i was losing much faster and i just don't get it! but i need to just think of the positives and not the negatives.... at least I'm losing weight and getting farther away from 300lbs instead of closer or even pass it! I been also having trouble getting enough liquids in every day... any suggestions?

Sunday, March 18, 2012

St. Patty's Day!

So i know i been slacking posting... i just still have been soooo busy! but anyways I workout every night this week until Friday! Friday night my friend and i drove up to Boston to visit a friend for St. Patrick's Day!!! As far as eating and drinking i did fairly well EXCEPT her mother baked some cookies that were pretty big that she called whoopers. They had nuts white chocolate regular chocolate chocolate cookie and she wanted me to try it. I was like no i am still full from breakfast and she was like there is always room for chocolate and i made another excuse up and then she was like come on just eat it.... so i ate it!!!! i felt so guilty but knew that i shouldn't ruin the rest of my day... and i didn't... We  walked around Boston for 4 hours straight so i def got my workout in for yesterday!

We went on this bar crawl, but everywhere we were registered at was at capacity and they did not have the specials as promised when we signed up so it was kind of upsetting! We finally got to a club called Rumor and Venue and we stayed for a few hours. We started dancing then ran in to some other people we saw earlier and talked with them then some guy came up to me and said his friend wanted to dance with me but didn't want to be rude so i ended up talking to him for awhile.... he was SUPER cute!!!! he had blueish greenish eyes and blonde very short hair and he was of short but its ok because i am extremely short so he was still taller than me...he had a Boston accent that my friend and i thought was very cute but then i found he was only 22!!! that's how old my brother is!!!!! so yeahhh but you never know he was very nice... we then hung out with some other guys.... they def weren't as cute and def more drunk... most guys were just drunk and stupid so we didn't find any great guys! ohhhh well!!! that's not our reason to go out... its to go to have fun :) and we accomplished that... until some girl threw up alll over my new dress!!!!!!! i wanted to cry!! thank god it was at the end of the night though!

So that was my st pattys day!!! But this morning we went to a really good diner! I had an omelet with egg white a little cheddar cheese, salsa, and mushrooms cooked dry and it was fabulous!!! so because that cookie i am trying to go pretty light today though because of that cookie and now i am home and exhausted!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

I feel like i am on top of the world!!!

So this week i have been busy being a mother for 3 kids for 3 days.... which means i couldn't go to zumba at night but i went to the gym after they went to school and before i went to work... i was worried that i wouldn't be able to do it but i have alot of will power and everything worked out great!! but idk how you mothers do that everyday!!!  The whole day was revolved around these kids needs and i didn't have much time to think about my own needs, but i managed to eat all my points everyday and also not go over!  I gained .2 lbs this week which i was extremely upset about but now im not that worried because i know i didn't do anything wrong and its just my body... hopefully this week will be a big weight loss! All this going out to eat and what not just make it easier now for anything to come up... i have been dreading going to a Mexican restaurant but i realize i cant be scared of it because i do like Mexican food... last night i went to a new Mexican restaurant with my friend and usually i would go straight for the tacos, enchiladas and fill up on all the chips and salsa... Well the chips were just staring at me and it was hard not to devour the whole basket... but i did have a couple for taste... my friend made a comment like have some more chips i feel like a pig because I'm eating them all.. anyways... the way that i end up turning is toward shrimp because i love shrimp and its really low in calories and everything so the sauce and whatever else wont be as bad as if i were to choose chicken or beef!! But anyways i got shrimp with some kind of chile pepper sauce that was not greasy or oily at all it tasted really good and healthy at the same time it came with some kind of rice and been mixture on the side... which was ok but i ate about half of the side... then sweet plantains... which were also good but i had about half of the small portion that came with it... my friend wanted dessert and i wasn't going to not get anything again so i got a vanilla ice cream she got flan... which i love and i knew i would be dying inside if i didn't get something... anyways the ice cream came with 2 small about 1.5 in balls... i had one scoop and was completely satisfied... now earlier in the day i barely had any points so this meal was perfect way to end my day... i didn't over stuff myself and choose good things and also was able to eat some dessert!

last night my friend and i also went to party city to get some accessories for the parade and we had a ball!! the stuff we got is super cute! I cant wait!

Well today is my friends birthday and we are celebrating tonight and  tomorrow going to the parade... i need to go to the gym, get a dress, and get my nails done!!

I was looking at pictures of myself last year this time for the parade and my friends birthday and i got discouraged because i was alot smaller than i am now!!

but this is when i was in the process of gaining all my weight back so i was prob about prob about 60lbs lighter but not eating the right foods soo yeah! also i feel better because... last night i put on a blanket that i have in my car and the last time i wore my blanket it was getting in the way of my steering wheel when i would turn and get all tangled... but last night i was able to wear the blanket plus have extra space between me and the wheel so i obviously lost some inches!

anyways i know i been busy but this week i think i will have more time to finally be back on here!!!

Carbaholic Girlie!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

1 weekend down... 2 more to go!

So now that the weekend is over i am totally not as discouraged! i think God has been helping me this weekend big time!!! everything just seemed to fall into place for me! first off, Friday night i went out and i had a shrimp salad which the shrimp was just grilled .. i asked for the balsamic vinaigrette on the side and they gave me the Gorgonzola cheese on the side too... there were lots of croutons in this salad... but i tried one... so i wasn't deprived... but i didn't even like them.. so i just pushed them to the side!! then i had a small cup of vegetarian chili.. which was great! and my friend order dessert... but the dessert was some kind of fruit cobbler with oatmeal that just wasn't appealing to me at all! so Friday night down!!! then Saturday came ... i didn't have time to work out all weekend but that's ok because i danced last night... i got my hair done as my reward to myself and i love it! its just darker than i have seen it in a long time because i got rid of most of my highlights and slightly darkened my hair! but anyways.... i went low during the day to prepare for hibachi.. because its all oily.. before i left for dinner i had a banana and an apple so i was nice and full! i drove to the restaurant with my friend and on the way up she asked me if i wanted to split a plate of  hibachi... well we got the combo shrimp and chicken... she doesn't like shrimp so i had all the shrimp she didn't like most of the vegetables so i ate mostly that and gave her all the noodles and rice.... i took one taste just to try it... but was just not that good anyways so i just gave all of that to my friend... it was completely satisfying!! and perfect amount of food... plus i still had a few more points leftover for drinks... we had a great time for my friends birthday and danced the night away!!! this morning, again, i was trying to go light but made sure i got my oils milks and fruits in because we were supposed to go to olive garden... now i have been freaking out about this  all week... i have been trying to prepare myself for it because all the food there is really high in points and sodium! so i was going to get a venetian chicken which is like 10 points but i don't how much i would like that... then i was thinking maybe i could just do whole wheat pasta with marinara sauce... but it turns out olive garden was an hour wait so no one wanted to wait that long so we decided on Ruby Tuesdays instead... my meal was def healthy and on target... plus i got a nice big salad from the salad bar with balsamic vinager on it... it was great! i tried creamy mashed cauliflower and it really does taste like mashed potatoes! So i can take a breath now and relax but i still have the sleeping over babysitting coming up this week and the hotel/ parade next weekend.. then going to Boston the weekend after! i feel like i was all worried about nothing... i know the right choices to make and  i make them not ignore them...

i put a wallpaper on my phone that says never give up... its been really keeping me focused i think!

night ox
Carbaholic Girlie

Friday, March 2, 2012

A lot of Life is in my way!!!

Hey Everyone!

So i have had obligations lately and i feel like its going to effect my weight loss journey for the next 2 weeks! I have to go to all these dinners... and i don't cheat when i go out to eat but you never truly know all the oil and what not that goes into the food that the chef prepares plus its filled with sodium.... I had red lobster on Tuesday, Chinese last night, tonight I'm going to like a steakhouse, tomorrow hibachi then out after for my friends birthday, then dunt dunt dunt olive garden on Sunday!!! i know i can choose the right options it's just i rather eat and cook at home where i know what is being put into my dish! I didn't have a chance to work out or go to zumba on Tuesday or today... maybe later tonight? Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut at 12 and I'm def not going to want to ruin my hair after that.... idk!!! ughhh Then Tuesday night until Thursday i am nannying 3 children... i don't know how i am going to manage to eat all my points at somebody else's house! and plus when am i going to workout? since i will be constantly with the kids unless they are in school which i will be working then... i could prob fit in the gym after i drop them off at the bus stop and before work... but not only that, next Saturday i am staying overnight in a hotel for my friend's birthday which we will be celebrating that night and then all go to the st Patrick's day parade after...The St. Patrick's day parade is a HUGE event here for people my age.. im not going to cheat it's just alot of life is getting in my weigh and it will make my weight loss smaller!!!

I have been so stressed out about this i feel like i gained some weight back already.. i shouldn't be gaining weight or losing small amounts yet! i just need to look forward and not worry about it... I'm going to have more time to loose the weight but i want to reach 250 by July 5th... which doesn't look like it may happen now :(... but I'm still going to try!!!

Wish me luck!!

ox Carbaholic Girlie