Tuesday, May 15, 2012

ex roommate hits the gym!

Last 2 weigh ins went great!!! i lost a total of 29.6lbs now!! which means i was able to loose 25lbs and my 10 percent (29.4 lbs)

last night i went to the gym and who did i see there but... my ex roommate and she stole all my belonings... like everything from me so i have a lot of anger towards her... i was the whole reason why she ever started going to that gym... i literally dragged her there... and she even went into zumba which that zumba ALWAYS was my classs that i did with my friend and she knows that... she also had the nerve to talk about me as if she is the victim... which is something she always tends to do pretend she is the victim... our last days that we lived together she saw i was working on losing weight... it only lasted a couple weeks... she started to not eat and she started to loose some weight... she def isnt as big as i am... but she does need to loose some weight prob about 65-70 lbs.. but anyways when i saw her she looked like she gained all that weight back she prob thought that i either stayed the same or gained a little weight since i saw her though as well... hopefully i wont see her too much at the gym though i mean the only time i go to that one is when i go with my friend because there are a few other ones that are probably closer....


swimming has been going good in the morning... my mom and i have been really enjoying...everyone is always sooo nice at the ymca... i feel comfortable there... and i really love swimming


so im looking forward to this book i ordered on amazon to come here... its called jamima j... its looks like its pretty much about a fat girl at 27 with all her insecurites and she got through her all of it and lost her weight

sorry i been lacking puting in my blogs i want to get back to do it more

<3 Carbaholic Girlie

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Cinco de Mayo!

Cinco de mayo went good!!!  i ended up making my own mexican dinner... very low points and very delicious :)!! and ate low all day so i could enjoy one margarita... which i did and i had a corona light which was 3 points... we had a fun night! some drama.. not with me though... but a fun night!

 i didnt end up getting either of those headbands... i curled my hair and put a flower clip in my hair instead... it looked really cute... i wore a mexican kind of looking casual dress... and a guy who had the most amazing deep blue eyes and italian (my 2 weaknesses) came and set next to me to talk...When he first came over i thought that he was doing it as a joke... because i thought why would someone who has a perfect body and so gorgeaus come up to me out of all these other skinny girls... but i didnt let him know i was thinking that of course... but then he def asked for my number and then called and texted me so i had his number and said he would text me later which he texted me to me saying he is home and he would text me tomorrow... he was really nice and he has a good job too he picked a flower for me and put it behind my ear lol... he owns a hair salon with his sister.   so that def pulled my confidence up a notch... Also my friend was totally crushing on his friend... and i think that it may have been mutual but he was really shy!


another thing i got excited about... was this mmorning i tried on a pair of jeans i  used to wear all the time but got too tight and now i fit into again!!! so a few things are making me happy this morning...

well my plan for the next few days is that im babysitting for that family again that i nannied for a few day starting tonight through wed morning.. so no time to go to the gym i think for the next couple of days... idk how you mothers do it everyday!!!

So right now im trying to get out of bed, go to the gym, then visit with my friend before tutoring her brother and sister then off to babysitting!


<3
Carbaholic Girlie!

Friday, May 4, 2012

Cinco De Mayo Fiesta Dillema!

Well this morning started off dreary just like the rest of the week but the sun finally began to show itself here in ct!!! We def needed the rain though... the only snow we got all winter  season was actually the end of fall on Halloween lol! My mom and i have been enjoying the swimming in the morning... but we are trying to get used to the waking up extra early in the morning! Im hoping to be at 25lbs lost this week... hopefully ill be able to do it :)!!! and other thing is we dont understand how these women just walked around naked in the locker room????? i will absolutely never do that!

Tomorrow we are bringing the dogs to the vet... this will be the first time they are going together... we have one huge dog and one small one lol... when i moved back home i brought my little dog with me... luckily he was still a puppy and our big dog mothers him .... they just love each other sooo much!! but we will see what happens

Tomorrow is also Cinco De Mayo which means.... party time!! margaritas tacos tequila and coronas....  i dont really like tequila or coronas but i do like margaritas and tacos... which i hope i will be able to resist! I also want to buy this cute head band from party city


 

not sure which one yet... guess it depends on my outfit... i just lovveee fun accessories lol
anyways im exhausted so im going to just relax tonight!






Night loves,
Carbaholic Girlie <3

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

The Swimmer Inside of ME!

Hey everyone!


Yesterday, i had a huge wake up call! I have always been a fabulous swimmer... i learned how to swim before i even walked! When i was in 4th grade i was a little competitive swim team and was able to swim 200 consecutive laps without taking a break. And from there i became even better, i was on a very competitive swim team where we traveled all over and went to state champions and etc. Well my mom and i decided we would start swimming in the morning before work... which means waking up earlier lol... and we got to the YMCA and started swimming and i seemed to only be able at most to do 4 laps (100 yds) before having to stop... I used to be able to do that in a meet (race) without a problem... So here comes a new goal for me: I want to become a stronger swimmer! and stick with it!!!

Well weigh i lost only .8 lbs but thats ok to me because i had such a huge lost last week and i didnt get to exercise at all because i was sick all week... so i wasnt expecting a huge number on the scale!

Today my meatball is graduating college or whatever its consider- she's becoming/ is a dental assistant... so i have the honor of seeing her graduate.. but not sure if we are going out to eat after- most likely we... hopefully somewhere that has some healthy options! but she knows im on ww... so should be ok

Friday, April 27, 2012

Sick of being Sick

Hey All,

Been still trying to fight off this strepthroat!!!  still no gym time for me... i really want to go to the gym... mainly for the sauna lol! Ive been thinking of why my weight loss was going so slow... i honestly believe its because i was snacking, but, it would be all together and not spread out.. .so my metabolism wasnt always working... i started spreading out my snacks out more like i try to eat something once an hour from 8:30ish until 230ish.... then have a snack before dinner and then my ww ice cream later and am done for the night.... sometimes though its hard to do because im just soo busy at work!!

 So tonight im taking it easy, tomorrow i want to be well enough to go to the gym again, but im also going to movie and a dinner with my mom, great aunt, my meatball, and her mom- We're seeing the 5 year engagement... Also, my meatball and I are going to look for a dress for her and maybe do our nails and eyebrows,,,, then on Sunday i am going to the outlets a couple of my other girl friends... No going out at night this weekend for me though... im trying to get a 20lbs lost picture up but i dont have any too recent of a picture... Also my mom notices a difference and i feel a difference... like this pair of sweats i bought when i first started we too tight and no they fit very comfy... but its hard for me or really anyone else to see a change because of the fact i gained 45lbs in like 3months...

Ohhh i cant believe i forgot to write about this!!!2 Saturdays ago on the elipitical i was finally able to run a mile without slowing down at all!!! That was one of my goals!! The next day i ran 2 miles in i think 16 and a 1/2 minutes!! i couldnt believe it!!! i was soooo proud of myself!!!



Oh another fact... i need to start taking my own advice.... i run an extended learning program and told a couple of my kids that when they want to lash out to write/ draw why they are upset in a little notebook that they should carry around with them at all times and then react to the situation... both of them listened... but what about me with the 2 times i cheated... did i do that?? no i think if i did i would have benefited from it... like another time i blogged!


<3
Carbaholic Girlie ox

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Surprising Weigh In!

Well it's weigh in morning!!!!


I lost 4.4lbs this week.... i cant really even tell you why??? I was sick all week so didnt do much exercising and was on antibiotic..... and i cheated... the only reason i could think of was that i have been doing the Jillian Michael's Detox jump start system and today is my last day... and it probably really cleaned out my system...

Other great news is that I made my first extremely big purchase all by myself... i bought a brand new car!!!! there is only like 10 miles on it after i brought it home!!!!So some exciting stuff happening to me!!! Another great thing is my best friend came back from her like 2 week European vacation ( i knoowww i am sooo jealous!) and we are planning on getting a personal trainer a couple times a week... the only thing is that she just needs to tone and i need to loose weight... but she lost like 100lbs a few years back... so idkk


Well today is work, dinner, gym... and thats about it ... and ohhh yeah biggest looser is on!!!!


So i finally hit past the 20 lbs weight loss!!!  22.2 lbs gone!!!


Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie <3

Monday, April 23, 2012

Food Hangover!

I wanted to share this article with you guys because it really struck me  and helped me out!


http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=1732


This week i have been lacking going to the gym... but thats only because i have been really sick....yet again! I have seriously been sick at least once a month this year and i think this is the second time i got strep! My throat was really swollen and it hurt soo much that the back of my head even hurt... ive got strep alot in my life but that was the worst throat pain i have ever had... the dr even gave me some gargle to numb and reduce the swelling in my throat... im on the last day of the medicine and i dont feel 100% better! Another reason i been lacking going to the gym is because of my car situation.... My car completely stalled out on my way to work last week! time that i buy a new car... so i am on the hunt for that! i will find out today if i get approved for a loan to buy this 2012 honda civic coupe ex!!!  I hope i get it!!! its beautiful! also a good long term investment...



Yesterday was a bad day for me diet wise! We went to NJ (i live in CT) to visit my cousin, and his family, who is moving to Tanzania! They made us a wonderful lunch roast beef, collard greens, and brown rice... They also gave us wheat thins and port wine cheese which was really good.... and they also served us ice cream... i did good there i only had like 3 crackers with cheese, a good portion of the meal and only a little ice cream... I was satisfied.... My mom though didnt do as good lol... she said when we got in the car she did horrible and she was already thinking about pizza... i didnt respond but dwelled on the thought of it.... anyways about half hour later we stopped and got snacks... and not healthy ones either... then later we got pizza.... i cantt eat as much pizza as i used to be able to but i def over did it!!! the worst part was before during and after i felt huge guilt..... and this morning have a huge stomach ache..... ughhh the food hangover!!! So today i am eating really light and hopefully it wont effect my weight on the scale too much tomorrow! This is the second time this cheating thing happened and i need to put a stop to it immediately and focus on this feeling that i get... i wanted to hit the 20 lbs lost this week... but now it doesnt look that way :(...







Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie <3

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Quick Update!

So i know Ive been lacking posting blogs  but i just feel like i have just been soo busy!! and also upset because i want to loose faster... i feel like discourage even though i know its ok to loose weight fast and actually probably better for the long run... which i would tell anybody else... but i feel like i have worked out a lot and have accomplished some other goals.... the other day i ran a mile in 8 mins and 30 seconds... i couldnt believe it!!!! so that was a great accomplishment!!! i also know i had my first AND HOPEFULLY NOT HAPPEN FOR A LONG TIME AGAIN cheating binge... Easter weekend i dont know what i was thinking but i def cheated.... and it didnt help that i had my period that week either!! i gained like 2.8 lbs because of 3 days - plus water weight! but it happened... and then last tuesday i bought the jillian michaels detox (which i have used before and love!) its good because i dont have to fast or anything and its all natural supplements... so i been doing that and feel like my body is doing better! hopefully too this will jumpstart my weight loss/ metabolism... well anyways im not at work right now because my car broke down in the middle of the road at a light... and its time i just bought a new car!!! ive been saving up for this day for awhile now so i am excited i guess, but just hard to hand over all the saved up money plus have to make monthly payments.

so my new favorite thing to do is go in the sauna after working out.... and boyyyy does it feel good... the only problem is that some characters show up in the sauna some times and makes me feel uncomfortable lol...

well thats about it for now... hopefully next week i will hit the 20lbs lost mark!!!



Much love,
Carbaholic

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Why am i losing soooo slow?

So i been getting kind of upset about how my weight loss has been stagnant! idk why i feel like its going soooo slow!!! Ive been working out hard and eating good choices yet i feel like i should be losing more weight! idk... but i realized i lost 5% of my original starting weight which was one of my goals so i accomplished that!! Also, i feel like i been more tempted to cheat but haven't actually gone through with it... and don't plan on it! I keep comparing my weight loss to the last time and thinking how i was losing much faster and i just don't get it! but i need to just think of the positives and not the negatives.... at least I'm losing weight and getting farther away from 300lbs instead of closer or even pass it! I been also having trouble getting enough liquids in every day... any suggestions?

Sunday, March 18, 2012

St. Patty's Day!

So i know i been slacking posting... i just still have been soooo busy! but anyways I workout every night this week until Friday! Friday night my friend and i drove up to Boston to visit a friend for St. Patrick's Day!!! As far as eating and drinking i did fairly well EXCEPT her mother baked some cookies that were pretty big that she called whoopers. They had nuts white chocolate regular chocolate chocolate cookie and she wanted me to try it. I was like no i am still full from breakfast and she was like there is always room for chocolate and i made another excuse up and then she was like come on just eat it.... so i ate it!!!! i felt so guilty but knew that i shouldn't ruin the rest of my day... and i didn't... We  walked around Boston for 4 hours straight so i def got my workout in for yesterday!

We went on this bar crawl, but everywhere we were registered at was at capacity and they did not have the specials as promised when we signed up so it was kind of upsetting! We finally got to a club called Rumor and Venue and we stayed for a few hours. We started dancing then ran in to some other people we saw earlier and talked with them then some guy came up to me and said his friend wanted to dance with me but didn't want to be rude so i ended up talking to him for awhile.... he was SUPER cute!!!! he had blueish greenish eyes and blonde very short hair and he was of short but its ok because i am extremely short so he was still taller than me...he had a Boston accent that my friend and i thought was very cute but then i found he was only 22!!! that's how old my brother is!!!!! so yeahhh but you never know he was very nice... we then hung out with some other guys.... they def weren't as cute and def more drunk... most guys were just drunk and stupid so we didn't find any great guys! ohhhh well!!! that's not our reason to go out... its to go to have fun :) and we accomplished that... until some girl threw up alll over my new dress!!!!!!! i wanted to cry!! thank god it was at the end of the night though!

So that was my st pattys day!!! But this morning we went to a really good diner! I had an omelet with egg white a little cheddar cheese, salsa, and mushrooms cooked dry and it was fabulous!!! so because that cookie i am trying to go pretty light today though because of that cookie and now i am home and exhausted!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

I feel like i am on top of the world!!!

So this week i have been busy being a mother for 3 kids for 3 days.... which means i couldn't go to zumba at night but i went to the gym after they went to school and before i went to work... i was worried that i wouldn't be able to do it but i have alot of will power and everything worked out great!! but idk how you mothers do that everyday!!!  The whole day was revolved around these kids needs and i didn't have much time to think about my own needs, but i managed to eat all my points everyday and also not go over!  I gained .2 lbs this week which i was extremely upset about but now im not that worried because i know i didn't do anything wrong and its just my body... hopefully this week will be a big weight loss! All this going out to eat and what not just make it easier now for anything to come up... i have been dreading going to a Mexican restaurant but i realize i cant be scared of it because i do like Mexican food... last night i went to a new Mexican restaurant with my friend and usually i would go straight for the tacos, enchiladas and fill up on all the chips and salsa... Well the chips were just staring at me and it was hard not to devour the whole basket... but i did have a couple for taste... my friend made a comment like have some more chips i feel like a pig because I'm eating them all.. anyways... the way that i end up turning is toward shrimp because i love shrimp and its really low in calories and everything so the sauce and whatever else wont be as bad as if i were to choose chicken or beef!! But anyways i got shrimp with some kind of chile pepper sauce that was not greasy or oily at all it tasted really good and healthy at the same time it came with some kind of rice and been mixture on the side... which was ok but i ate about half of the side... then sweet plantains... which were also good but i had about half of the small portion that came with it... my friend wanted dessert and i wasn't going to not get anything again so i got a vanilla ice cream she got flan... which i love and i knew i would be dying inside if i didn't get something... anyways the ice cream came with 2 small about 1.5 in balls... i had one scoop and was completely satisfied... now earlier in the day i barely had any points so this meal was perfect way to end my day... i didn't over stuff myself and choose good things and also was able to eat some dessert!

last night my friend and i also went to party city to get some accessories for the parade and we had a ball!! the stuff we got is super cute! I cant wait!

Well today is my friends birthday and we are celebrating tonight and  tomorrow going to the parade... i need to go to the gym, get a dress, and get my nails done!!

I was looking at pictures of myself last year this time for the parade and my friends birthday and i got discouraged because i was alot smaller than i am now!!


but this is when i was in the process of gaining all my weight back so i was prob about prob about 60lbs lighter but not eating the right foods soo yeah! also i feel better because... last night i put on a blanket that i have in my car and the last time i wore my blanket it was getting in the way of my steering wheel when i would turn and get all tangled... but last night i was able to wear the blanket plus have extra space between me and the wheel so i obviously lost some inches!

anyways i know i been busy but this week i think i will have more time to finally be back on here!!!


ox
Carbaholic Girlie!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

1 weekend down... 2 more to go!

So now that the weekend is over i am totally not as discouraged! i think God has been helping me this weekend big time!!! everything just seemed to fall into place for me! first off, Friday night i went out and i had a shrimp salad which the shrimp was just grilled .. i asked for the balsamic vinaigrette on the side and they gave me the Gorgonzola cheese on the side too... there were lots of croutons in this salad... but i tried one... so i wasn't deprived... but i didn't even like them.. so i just pushed them to the side!! then i had a small cup of vegetarian chili.. which was great! and my friend order dessert... but the dessert was some kind of fruit cobbler with oatmeal that just wasn't appealing to me at all! so Friday night down!!! then Saturday came ... i didn't have time to work out all weekend but that's ok because i danced last night... i got my hair done as my reward to myself and i love it! its just darker than i have seen it in a long time because i got rid of most of my highlights and slightly darkened my hair! but anyways.... i went low during the day to prepare for hibachi.. because its all oily.. before i left for dinner i had a banana and an apple so i was nice and full! i drove to the restaurant with my friend and on the way up she asked me if i wanted to split a plate of  hibachi... well we got the combo shrimp and chicken... she doesn't like shrimp so i had all the shrimp she didn't like most of the vegetables so i ate mostly that and gave her all the noodles and rice.... i took one taste just to try it... but was just not that good anyways so i just gave all of that to my friend... it was completely satisfying!! and perfect amount of food... plus i still had a few more points leftover for drinks... we had a great time for my friends birthday and danced the night away!!! this morning, again, i was trying to go light but made sure i got my oils milks and fruits in because we were supposed to go to olive garden... now i have been freaking out about this  all week... i have been trying to prepare myself for it because all the food there is really high in points and sodium! so i was going to get a venetian chicken which is like 10 points but i don't how much i would like that... then i was thinking maybe i could just do whole wheat pasta with marinara sauce... but it turns out olive garden was an hour wait so no one wanted to wait that long so we decided on Ruby Tuesdays instead... my meal was def healthy and on target... plus i got a nice big salad from the salad bar with balsamic vinager on it... it was great! i tried creamy mashed cauliflower and it really does taste like mashed potatoes! So i can take a breath now and relax but i still have the sleeping over babysitting coming up this week and the hotel/ parade next weekend.. then going to Boston the weekend after! i feel like i was all worried about nothing... i know the right choices to make and  i make them not ignore them...


i put a wallpaper on my phone that says never give up... its been really keeping me focused i think!


night ox
Carbaholic Girlie

Friday, March 2, 2012

A lot of Life is in my way!!!

Hey Everyone!

So i have had obligations lately and i feel like its going to effect my weight loss journey for the next 2 weeks! I have to go to all these dinners... and i don't cheat when i go out to eat but you never truly know all the oil and what not that goes into the food that the chef prepares plus its filled with sodium.... I had red lobster on Tuesday, Chinese last night, tonight I'm going to like a steakhouse, tomorrow hibachi then out after for my friends birthday, then dunt dunt dunt olive garden on Sunday!!! i know i can choose the right options it's just i rather eat and cook at home where i know what is being put into my dish! I didn't have a chance to work out or go to zumba on Tuesday or today... maybe later tonight? Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut at 12 and I'm def not going to want to ruin my hair after that.... idk!!! ughhh Then Tuesday night until Thursday i am nannying 3 children... i don't know how i am going to manage to eat all my points at somebody else's house! and plus when am i going to workout? since i will be constantly with the kids unless they are in school which i will be working then... i could prob fit in the gym after i drop them off at the bus stop and before work... but not only that, next Saturday i am staying overnight in a hotel for my friend's birthday which we will be celebrating that night and then all go to the st Patrick's day parade after...The St. Patrick's day parade is a HUGE event here for people my age.. im not going to cheat it's just alot of life is getting in my weigh and it will make my weight loss smaller!!!

I have been so stressed out about this i feel like i gained some weight back already.. i shouldn't be gaining weight or losing small amounts yet! i just need to look forward and not worry about it... I'm going to have more time to loose the weight but i want to reach 250 by July 5th... which doesn't look like it may happen now :(... but I'm still going to try!!!


Wish me luck!!

ox Carbaholic Girlie

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

week 4 complete!

So i just am really writing to talk  about weigh in today.. I am down another 1.8lbs more... i was expecting a bigger number but i still hit past my 10 lb mark! i already feel like i can see and feel it in my body! I feel like i worked hard for that little weight loss... but at least im losing conisitently. I also wanted to say after 4 weeks things turn into a habit and this way of eating has become my way of life....

This Saturday im getting my hair done... which is kind of like my reward for losing the first 10lbs and something that needs to be done lol... im thinking about going really dark a couple of light brown and caramel highlights in my bangs and underneath.. not sure though!

Other than i just have been exhausted!

Nightie Night
Carbaholic Girlie!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

I Am My Own Worst Enemy!

This weekend i went to the gym on Friday and Sunday to workout on the machines... i realized i am my have alot of my own demons.... the whole time i am having an inner battle with myself of how i think i cant do it... and i am telling myself yes i can get through it, this is the consequence i have to pay for all the bad desicions i have made with food,  and I've made it through this workout before and i can do it again.... so I'm constantly arguing with myself... But when i leave i always feel accomplished!!! Another problem is that i think everyone in the gym is starring at me... i know that they aren't and they are only concerned with their work out but i still think that way... Friday i was at the gym sitting in my car battling with myself if i should go in or not.. after a couple minutes i finally did... then on Saturday i was on a bike after i went on an elliptical and there was only one bike open.. so i went to it and it was next to a man... i thought the whole entire time he was starring at me.. and i felt very insecure thinking that he was thinking why is this girl even here... but at the end of my workout he asked me what time the gym opens on Sunday... at that moment i realized he didn't care or was judging me at all... i am my own worst enemy!!! the only person truly judging me is myself and i need to defeat that if i want to get over this obstacle of loosing all this weight!!!!


Friday i got my taxes done... at least  i will be getting money back! Then went home to just relax...  Saturday i went to the gym then movies... i saw wonderlust- it wasn't the best movie or anything but it kept me laughing through the whole movie... we brought the healthy pop popcorn... with the fake spray butter... it was perfect for the movies!!! after the movies we went to Apple Bees... i had the sizzling chili lime chicken in the under 550 calories which was out of this world!! it was full of flavor and was extremely filling... it wasn't dinky at all!!! which was good because i thought it would be...  Then i went home to relax for a little and got ready to go out... i had alot of fun and am still in the mind set of i don't want all those foods that i get cravings for because i see what its done to my body and i want to to find a healthier substitute for it if i am going to eat it..  so i was good!! we went to a diner afterwards... my friends got fries with gravy and cheese... i was even tempted to eat one... i got  a cup of Manhattan clam chowder (the broth kind)... i figured that would be my best option... i probably went over my points a little bit yesterday.. but this is my first time diving into my weekly allowance/ fitness points... so i think i am ok... also today (Sunday) i went low on points just in case!

Everyday i am getting closer to my goal so i just have to enjoy the journey as i go along!


*Carbaholic Girlie

Thursday, February 23, 2012

No kickboxing for me!!

i ended up bailing on kickboxing... i got too scared especially since i would have gone alone... the last time i did kickboxing the class was too strenuous and i was alot smaller then... maybe im not ready yet!but i will be soon!!!!  right now zumba is doing the trick for me!

I was watching Biggest Loser last night and this morning before work (dvr) and thought how if i was on the black team i probably would have done the same thing as them... but then my mom made a point i didnt even think about at first... these guys risked a week of losing weight on campus- where you only get a limited amount of weeks there- to get rid of one person because of her drama...then i started to think... so what if the person brings drama and chaos to the house let them do what makes themself  happy... i would be in it for me and not let some drama queen ruin and jeopardize that.... i really think im starting to change my way of thinking now... i feel like i can overcome almost anything that is coming in my way and my days are focused on being one more day closer to my goal and another day down of being this heavy... if i keep it up i will be skinny before i know it... if not i will just get fatter... and get past my heaviest weight i have ever been and be miserable.... i feel great when i am losing weight... yeah every one has their struggles... but when im not losing i  have no control and eat a huge bowl of pasta and some garlic bread!!! and still be hungry lol.... but that is only satisfying for the time you are eating it... after you feel unbelievably sluggish or that omg i am soo full i cant even move feeling hits you...i call that the food hangover... its even worse than an alcoholic hangover...because at least with the alcoholic hangover you get over the bad feeling over a few hours or day of rest... but look at my stomach its huge... everything you do has an effect on your life or even body...

so with that another work week is almost complete and the weekend is very close... the weather here was beautiful i hope it stays for the weekend :)

Night ox
Carbaholic Girlie!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

WEEK 3 WEIGH IN!

This morning was weigh in!  another week down and another loss!!! i am down 2.6lbs!!!!! i am very happy about that!! Especially considering i was sick most of the week! Ahh and that makes it a total of 9.6lbs in 3 weeks! :) and now i know i will be getting into fat now and not just water weight...

Also i starting thinking about food being my addiction and how when a person looks at me the first thing they see is a fat girl which obviously shows my addiction immediately.... a lot of drug addicts you cant even tell by first sight they are an addict of some kind... and being fat you need to face the humiliation every second of the day because people are judging you almost all the time about your weight!! Which is quite embarrassing!! and that became a new motivation for me to loose this weight!! Also, another motivation for me is this girl that i know startied loosing weight back in 2009 and we had about the same weight to loose and now she is skinny and down 170lbs- she looks like a completely different person!!! that could have been me if i just stuck with it!! ohhh the many reasons of loosing this weight definitely out "weighs" wanting to eat something "bad" or trailing offf.... i am going to do this and the world better watch out because i am going to be one hot mama lol!!!

Another thing i am trying to do this time, that may be different, is that i am trying to look at this journet as one week at a time and try to set longer term goal ( that aren't too far away) as i go along!! This week my goal is to make it to 10lbs lost and i am going to try kickboxing tomorrow night... omggggg idt i can do it but ill try! And i am still on the "short term goal" of reaching 250 by my cousins wedding!

tonight i went to zumba again alone tonight and i saw my old weight watchers leader there... she just said hi from far away... and was all excited to see me... but at the same time i had that huge guilt of ... yeah i know i gained all my weight back... but at least im loosing it now !! Another thing is i thing that a BIG group of my friends might be coming to zumba with me now which i def wouldnt have done at my rock bottom 3 weeks ago... and thing is i invited them!! there can possibly be 7 or 8 of us!!! who knows who else will joins us by thursday! but i wouldnt mind anymore ;)

I've learned my lesson the hard way and i am just sooooo done with this fat!!!  its getting blasted away!!!


Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie

Monday, February 20, 2012

Weekend Madness!!!

So Saturday i woke up feeling MUCH better but i had to make up for time that i missed during the week to run errands. I also snuck in going to the gym!! I always think of Saturday as a day to relax but it really just gives you even more time to fit in a work out!!  and why not if i have all this extra time!!!!I tackled getting back on the elliptical and other equipment!!! I had a great workout!!!

Saturday, i went out and saved some points for drinking so i would be ok... and i def danced a lot... i was literally sweating my butt off ;)... with one of my girl friends... i like dancing to like house music because i am not the type to go ahead and dance with a guy...i like jumping around and doing crazy moves to the beat... i kind of find it a little gross grinding with someone... but i had a great workout doing what i was doing!!!

But anyways, i went online on Saturday  to look at the local pancake house menu that we were planning on going to and they had a light menu!!!  On the light menu was the calories, fat,carbs, protein, and fiber facts which was perfect for me because i could figure out the points...  i was going to get an asparagus and tomato egg white omelet with low fat mozzarella cheese with one whole wheat pancake and it would have been 7 total points... it would be perfect... if we ended up going there!!!! But is good to know for next time :)!!!

Saturday night, something major happened to my friend who's house i was sleeping at.  I stayed up with her trying to calm her down and be there for her... she was also extremely intoxicated! But idk how she got that way she didn't drink that much ????

So anyways, i ended up not eating anything until i  came home at dinner time... I alsooo resisted a huge temptation at her house! About an hour before i left her mom made lasagna... she explained to us that she thinks she may have added too much cheese.. which in my eyes sounds soooooo good!! lol but i told her no that i wasn't hungry (even though i was) and that my mom made me dinner anyways... i thought i this was a good reason to lie... i, by no means, think its usually ok to lie but i had to.. .for my own health!


Another obstacle that i faced was tonight, my friend decided to bail on me for zumba but i went anyways without talking myself into staying home! i had a pretty good reason to  stay home too... i think i may have pulled a calf muscle dancing Saturday night...i keep trying to stretch it out but i think it just needs some time... ughhh... my mom thinks i strained my muscle from wearing like 6in heels on Saturday night but when i was dancing... i was dancing without my shoes on lol... so was my friend lol


So i have been eating miracle noodles like almost everyday... can i just say.. they are AMAZING!!! i ate the fettuccine tonight just with turkey meatballs and tomato sauce...delicious!! they are such a miracle for a carbaholic like me ;)



But once again im scared about weigh in tomorrow!!! most of the week i barely ate and today i ate all my points so i hope that doesn't make me gain... i know that not eating enough can make you gain weight .... *crosses fingers* hopefully not though because of all that extra water weight i was carrying last week... we will see though!! I'm not going to get discouraged though because i know where i went wrong and I FEEL GOOD!!! AND THATS WHATS MOST IMPORTANT! right???


I have been craving pizza lately any good ideas to get rid of the craving???



Anyways- wish me luck for weigh in!!!

Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie <3 ox

Friday, February 17, 2012

Sick of being Sick!!!

This cold or flu, or whatever it is, is really kicking my butt!!! I've had no energy not even to really eat either... the only thing Ive been wanting is soup and tea... which loss of appetite rarely comes to me unless i have food poisoning! lol

i made the soup with miracle noodles!! IT was really good i got to say

i sauteed up some onion, garlic, broccoli, and mushrooms spiced with garlic and onion powder. I then added some beef low sodium and fat free broth. i added some chives and cilantro and cut a lemon in have and squeezed out the juice and let the lemon sit in the broth for a little bit- to get a great lemon taste. i then added the noodles and let it sit for a while in the broth... it was really good... I'm not sure about the scent of the noodles but i heard online it could be fishy before you add it into your food and don't let that scare you away... the noodles just really taste like whatever you add it to in a noodle form... which i like because of the slurping part makes me feel like I'm being rebellious!

I haven't worked out since wed night because of this cold i have been antsy though like i want to go work out but i don't want to be more sick.. and plus i have no energy :(.. also since i haven't been eating much i don't think its great to work out... i hope that doesn't slow my metabolism!! well i guess we will see and hope that this week's weight loss isn't ruined because of this cold!!!

I'm hoping tomorrow to go work out tomorrow then get my nails done and find an outfit for tomorrow night... but it all depends if i get better or not over night! I really want to go tomorrow with my friends...


 ok well im going to drink some orange juice and take some nyquil and go to sleep!
What do you guys do when your sick?


Thursday, February 16, 2012

This Nasty Cold!!

Yesterday and today i have been trying to tackle this cold that i have. I tried doing zumba last night, even though i was extremely sick, and i felt good during and right after... But then the cold symptoms came back so i guess i didnt sweat it out... i havent really eaten anything today, im home from work just resting, i am about to make a soup trying the miracle noodles.... hopefully they are good... i never had them before! But all i been wanting is soup and tea, nothing crunchy or anything... i hope this wont effect my weightloss next week... i am not eating anything bad but.. i know that all the low sodium stuff does add up to lots of sodium eventually.... hopefully its just for last night and today, and tomorrow im back to normal... idk if i should go to zumba or not tonight??

I guess we will see!

Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

2nd Weigh in and Valentine's Day!!!

First thing this morning i got on the scale.... dunt dunt dunt!!!! another 2.2 lbs lost... im happy with that number because my rantings of last night and next week will prob be better....

Today was Valentine's Day and at work we had a party!! With a party that means valentine's candy, cookies, and cupcakes!!! I did not struggle one bit.. Since i was the one serving them, it just looked like i had one and nobody paid mind or cared that i didn't... also i had noooo desire to waste my points on it... I could have looked up the points value but just didn't want any of the treats... they all did look good though!! One thing that i try to do is when i am in the middle of a temptation is to think about the taste it and that seems to satisfy my needs.. .especially since that is worth 0 points!!!


I think i am starting to get a cold... i just had a cold turned into a sinus infection a few weeks ago that lasted for 3 weeks... 2012 is not a good health year for me so far but hopefully this will be the last cold of the season!!


Saturday night, i am going to a birthday party for a friend and this has been planned for weeks... i should be able to tackle that night of drink easily especially since i am DD!! i rather be designated driver anyways because that will be just an extra reason i don't need to drink a lot..But what i am more worried about is im sleeping over my friends house and we are going out to breakfast to a place similar to ihop but is not a chain and has much more pancake options that are out of this world!!! The pancakes also come with huge omelets that again are delicious but soooo unhealthy... any suggestions on what i should do with this to prepare myself... i know to ask for them to cook my omelet dry and a vegetable omelet and egg whites... but am totally going to want those pancakes... hopefully imaging the taste will work... idk???


Anyways that's about it!!! Happy Valentine's Day!!!



Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie <3

Monday, February 13, 2012

Week 2 Pre-Weigh in Thoughts :(

Tonight i went to zumba in another town hoping to get my old instructor... she just happened to be out today and tomorrow... her sub wasn't that great, she was very robotic and was very masculine! I think she would be a great kickboxing instructor but you can tell dance wasn't her strong point. My friend absolutely hated it!!!

I have been spreading out my points better the last couple of days!!! no last minute stuffings to my face lol! This weekend i think i had a lot of sodium and my time of the month should be here any day!! I feel it coming in my mood and cramps!!

Since tomorrow is Valentine's Day I'm going to pick up some treats for work. I never have a problem eating them because i just don't look at them and i get enough for everyone else but me. Plus i know i have my ice cream bar at home waiting for me.... When i want to be i can be very strong against temptation... keyword being want to.. I don't have to worry about a fancy Valentine's Day dinner or a box of chocolates because i am SINGLE this year which is okay with me!!!! Most of my friends are too, so i never really have to third wheel it lol!


But i am scared about weigh in tomorrow because of the sodium and bloated thing... I worked sooo hard this week and will be soooo discouraged if i didn't do good... but i have to realize that its not like i cheated myself in anything or did anything wrong, its just my body!!! I think i had a pretty successful week 2 overall!!! I conquered some carb withdraws and didn't even look back!!


WISH ME LUCK!!!
Carbaholic Girlie

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Today i started off with very low points just because i was being too lazy to cook or anything lol... its saturday so i just wanted to relax... anyways i went to the movies to the see the vow... i liked it... im kind of bias though because i love channing tatum and rachel mcadams!!! I brought 4points worth of carrots cucumber and hummus... turned out to be very messy and noisy to eat lol but was a good thing i could snacked on for awhile... my mom brought cocoa dusted nuts and that sounded like a good idea  as well... sometimes i bring the healthy choice pop corn... any other suggestions?

We went to chilis and i stuck to my margarita chicken... my mom  got the chicken fajitas and only ate one tortilla.. and we gave our appetizer to the rest of my family that was there... they wanted the fried mozzerella.... i soooo wanted it but said no i will be satisfied and feel accomplish by eating my meal... and boyyyy was it good... i looked up the mozzerella stick and it would have been 5 points for one... i could have had one but... again didnt think it was a good waste my points...

After dinner we went bowling... i didnt do as well as i usually do lol... we played 3 games and my best score was 113.. but i havent played in a long times... i am very competitive and did not like loosing 2 out of 3 games lol but i had a greatt time!

Coming home i found out Whitney Houston died today, they found her body at the Beverly Hilton... the death is unknown right now... but the first thing i thought about was her battle with drugs... and she had such a wonderful voice... its too bad that she lost her battle... i started reflecting on myself and knowing that my battle of drugs is food ... and i do nottt want to loose my battle at a young age... i want to be a warrior and defeat it completely!!! Since i do have a competitive nature, i need to think how i can not let this beat me!!! i need to and will win the fight!

Signing Out,
Carbaholic Girlie


Friday, February 10, 2012

CARB WITHDRAAW!!

Yeayyyy the weekend is here!!! This week went by super fast for me,  but i am still ready for the weekend!!!! Tonight i am taking a break from the gym and not sure what my social plans are as of right now but its still early in the night...

This morning i decided i was going to do even more points in the morning because i still am tackling that last minute stuffing my face to eat all my points before i go to bed.... and i get frustrated because i want to make a healthy choice and choosing a fat free pudding or a low fat ice cream is fast and not filling... because i have been overrrr full lately.... but also those choices are loaded in carbs and i like not to over do carbs every day because i am a carbaholic...

But by having a large breakfast i didnt snack as much today i think.... my breakfast was too big... so now while im waiting for dinner i am STARVING!!! lol and i am having carb withdraws lol!!! i totally would love some pizza or pasta..... which i am having whole wheat pasta anyways.... or some lasagna or ramen noodles lol...or chips or something  but i have enough motivation and strength right now to keep me motivated and go through this weak moment!!! all of the food might taste greatttt for the minute but my body obviously doesnt like it!! Just my mouth does and my mouth is small compared to the rest of my body lol... By typing this blog it  is helping me get my focus off of my cravings...  thankkk god!!!!! Anyways, tomorrow i need to have a slightly smaller breakfast so i wont be as starving and have another withdraw lol... also its almost that time of the month for me which could be another reason why i am starving!

So i have been looking at other peoples blogs and wondering how the heck does every one have the different tabs on top... like before pictures, recipes, and where you are at right now??? and also have only 1 blog show up at a time???? are there special html codes?


-Carbaholic Girlie

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Food is my Drug!!!

Another day on program down!!!

Saw another one of my friends today at the gym... she was taking the same zumba class as my friend and i were .... i was actually excited to see her there lol!!!! I had another good night in zumba :) too

Every time i go on a diet i try to be like the biggest looser and figure out what my deep rooted reason is for being so overweight so i can tackle it... but i never can figure it out!!!! Ive been through alot in my life but i really dont think thats it!!!! I dont think any of it caused me to gain weight... its just my pure enjoyment of food! I am not pickkyyy, for the most part, when it comes to food... i am picky about everything else though in my life about myself... meaning i am very picky about clothes, guys, and desicions i make!! But i am a very easy going person always down to go anywhere and do anything at least one time in my life...

I just think food is my drug and i need to learn to modify the use of it just like i enjoy drinking but i dont over endulge in it.... i just need to portion it properly and think of the future effects of me eating a half of a large pizza and ramen noodles every day...




Well im balancing my social life a little better i am about to go to a bar for some funny karoake moments with my friends!!! I am a terrible singer lolol!!!! Im not going to drink anymore than 1 drink.... if that!!! and it would be a cherry vodka with diet coke- about 4 points!!!


Cheers,
Carbaholic Girlie


Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Let it Sweat!!!!

i feel soo refreshed... sweatty but refreshed!!! Zumba was great i was literally dripping with sweat when i left my shirt was sooo soaked that when i got in the car it was freezing and didnt want it to touch the seat... i got over my fear of doing moves and do it... this zumba instructor was great... everyone got a greattttt workout!!! I seriously think i havent sweat that hard since i played basketball in highschool!!!
Tonight at the gym i only saw one person i know and it was a good friend- actually i was with this friend in that horrible before picture of me (in the black and grey dress) for her birthday!!
i realized who cares if someone sees me they are there too... its kind of stupid that i want to hide i do all this just because i am soo big... i think i use it as a security... like just in case i dont suceed all the way but i cant think like that... i need to think i can and will suceed!!!
I also bought from trader joes cilantro dressing... its perfect for my salad... its 1 point for 2 tablespoons and makes the salad!!!


Signing out
Carbaholic Girlie!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Weigh in week 1!!!!!

This morning was WEIGHHH INN!!!! I have been a little emotional the last couple of days... probably because its about that time of the month for me... soo anyways i snuck into the bathroom and did a pre weigh in weight before i did the offical one with my mom.... it said that i was 287.8 which would mean i lost 6.6 lbs... but later on for some reason the scale went up to 289.6 which is only 4.8 lbs... i was sooo disappointed!!! but over the day i realized... number 1: i worked out 1 time this week and number 2: thats about 5 lbs and i still made my goal to get out of the 290's!!! thats really good... idk why i had this presumption that because it was the first week i would loose a 1lb or so more lbs... but i just dont understand why the scale changed like that in the matter of a half hour... and i didnt eat anything in between????? So yeah my next weeks goal is just to keep up with the zumba this week!!

 I went to zumba tonight and something clicked in my head... just dance... idk why but i have been so self cautious and thinking im too big to be doing moves like that lol... but at the end i realized i can do some moves lol... i may look silly but i need to loose this weight and the only way to learn is to make mistake... my weight is out of hand  and needs to get fixed.... the only way im going is down... and not up!!!!

 My friend told me tonight that i inspire her because she saw the way i was before with my weightloss journey and how i know the healthy foods to eat and she never knows... she said she didnt eat anything ALL day... i began talking to her about the kind of things she could do to eat and how its soooo important to fuel your body with the proper foods... and she def was listening and she is going to do calorie counting... sooo im happy for her!!! and happy i was able to inspire someone... the one other time i inspired someone with my weightloss journey was when my mother and i went to restaurant and we started talking to someone about weightwatchers and how we can eat wherever because i have the app on my phone of points for all these restaurants told them about how much we loved it and how much we lost... they ended up joining weightwatchers at a diff location and got our leader and told them how we inspired someone.... My number one goal in life is to make a postive difference in everyones life!!!
Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie

Monday, February 6, 2012

The Dreaded wall of Mirrors!!!

Tonight i went to zumba! yeayyy for me... I was dripping with sweat and beat red after only 15 minutes.... but by the time is was over i was sweating  not tooo badd though....i didnt know any of the moves lol so i did HORRIBLE lol i always  was doing the wrong thing lol.... my friend didnt really know what she was doing either lol... also alot of times i held back because i was thinking... omg im too big to be jumping or moving like that lol..idk if i made an excuse for myself or whatt... im thinking it was a mixture of the two.

 so i never went to zumba near my house because alotttt of people i know go there... thank god i only saw 2 people i know well there but 1 of them didnt even see me lol... but they both are girls and one of them is big herself... and who really cares at this point if the see me at the gym....e veryone obviously knows im fat lol....

so i am proud of myself for going...  zumba is alot of fun but it is a great workout and difficult... i have noooo cordination when it comes to dancing lol... i want to get back into swimming...i loveeee swimming... an it will be less strenuous on the joints im soooo achey right now!!! Idk if my back and feet hurt because i got in a car accident a few months ago and sprained my upper, lower, and middle back , plus my neck anddd a minor concusion, and my foot from the fall last week... i think its just because im not used to moving like that...


another thing i hate in zumba class is there always lots of mirrors... yes i like it because its easier to watch the instructor but i hate it because i dont like looking at my big body moving like that.... when i look in the mirror i dont tend to look at my body more than i need to ... that  is something i miss doing... when i was losing the weight before i would start to love looking at myself thinking... woahhh this girl is HOT! CANT WAIT to do be able to do that...

So i have 4 points left... i have been having trouble eating all my points... BY THE WAY I NEVERRRR THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THAT.... but i just have sooo many... Tomorrow morning is weigh in!!!!Super Excited.... already finished week 1 of my transformation... now to continue on this journey.... 3 more weeks and this will become a habbit!!!! My mini weight loss goal for this week is to get out of the 290s and into the 280s! can wait to see what happens!!!





Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie ox

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Workout Gear!

I am soo excited!! i bought 2 sports bras, a sport bra tank top, 1 pair of yoga pants, 2 sweatpants, 4 t-shirts and NEW SNEAKERS.... i love themm they are the fitness kind and are black and pink... just my style!!!


Also im  proud of myself i went to chilis and got a margarita grilled chicken... which for the whole plate is 15 (but i counted it as 16)... my friend  and i got the 2 for 20 which comes with an appetizer and  wanted the texas cheese fries.... i loveeee thoseee!!! i resisted temptation though and only ate the jalepenos and a couple of chives and wiped off the bacon... and focused on my coke zero and talked alot so it wasnt too noticable... no comment was made :)... i counted it as 1 pt though just in case... techincaly i could have eaten the fries but i used dwlz app on my phone and saw for a whole half order with the ranch they would be like 40 points... half would be 20 and that is just not worth it to me!! but i was totally thinking about it at one point.... but thought about how i want to loose this weight more than eating those fries!!!!











Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie

The Gym Dilemma hopefully solved!

Last night i made an excellent low point chicken... i cooked up 16 oz of chicken seasoned with about 1 tbsp of curry powder, 2 tsp of onion powder, 1 tsp of garlic powder, and lemon juice... then i slowly added 1 cup of milk (Hood Countdown)  and 2 string cheese broken up... which made a really good creamy cheese sauce... cheddar cheese prob would have made it even better.... and  lastly i added broccili to the mix... the whole thing was 15 points... the sauce was 3 points and the chicken was 12points.... for half. (8 oz) was 8 points... AND VERY FILLING! I will def make this recipe again!!!

so i used to do zumba in the summertime but my friend and i slowly faded away from it because of our schedules and what not... i liked going to zumba with this friend because she lost alot of weight and was heavy when we were in highschool so i felt comfortable with her ... plus we both are horrible at it lol... anyways she lives closer to a gym that i used to live by (since i moved) but now that commute is just too far for a gym especially knowing that there are 4 other gyms that are closer... so even if we started up again it probably wouldnt last long ...

I also used to go to the gym with my heavy friend... we even had a personal trainer together.... but both of us would make up excuses of why we didnt have to go anymore.... she recently texted me asking if i would like to start going with her... but we cant make excuses.. and i said yeah def but i wanted to wait until i started back up on program.... but now she has too much going on, that she is trying to juggle... so that is on the back burner for her at least right now....

i also asked my meatball if she wanted to start going to the gym with me again (we will always do really good for a few months and then just stop lol) but her contract ended and she hasnt been to the gyms in months so she didnt renew it.......

 So i have been trying to figure out who i can go to zumba or the gym with without being embarassed..... because like i said i have alot friends but most have the perfect body... so me next to them seems kind of silly... esp knowing i am going to work out with them... they are trying to tone moreawhile  i need to loose alotttt of weight... another thing is i dont like people knowing when i am on a diet... yeah afterwhile people might notice... but i dont like people asking me how much weight i lost.... when it prob looks like 10 lbs to them but is really 50lbs lol and still being soooo much overweight and have soo much more to go ..... or when you tell people you are on a diet and they judge everything you are eating... yeah they are just trying to help but they dont truely know what i can or cannot eat... i do!! and i dont want to be judged if i want to use my extra points on a fattening meal- its not their business... idk im just ashamed about being so overweight i guess :(


Then last night, i was on facebook and saw my other friend saying how she wants to loose 20lbs in 4 weeks... no way is that going to happen lol because thats all the weight she needs to loose lol... prob will take her like 3months... lol but i feel completely comfortable with her because i know she wouldnt judge me.... and im excited  because over the course of the last 2 years we grew apart... only because of one main issue which is not in our life anymore and we have a better connection because of everything that happened.. but we just are not in the same circle of friends anymore... slowly she is coming into one of my circles... IM trying to hook her up with my friend lol we will see how it goes lol... but yeahhhhhh tomorrow we will start zumba and  i am READY!!!





Right now im eating my morning protien shake then going to buy some  good workout gear!!! maybe a new undershirt, sweats, t shirts, andddd new sneakers... im thinking i want to get some shapeups!! but not sure!!! super excited and super motivated!! my ankle and knee still some what hurt from the fall this week lol; but hopefully tomorrow it will feel completely better!!


Signing Out,
Carbaholic Girlie

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Grossss!!

I wanted to add this story about pink slime.... this will def keep me away from McDonalds for awhile!!!


pink slime!!

My Fabulous Mid Saturday Thoughts


 


Last night was relaxing... i usually go out and party on Friday and Saturday nights but i have just been sooooo tired... it's not that i dont know how to go out when on program  because i used to go out all the time... if i would drink i would drink diet coke with cherry vodka which for every shot worth of vodka put in is 4 points.... i would eat lower points during the day and save some for drinking but if i wanted more than 1 or 2 drinks i would use my extra weekly allowance... yes i know when you drink you are starving but if you get a fresco chicken taco from taco bell its only  like 4 points each or i would wait to come home to eat a light quick snack... also a burger from mcdonalds isnt too bad i think its like 15 points for a big mac... the following day or 2 i would just go light if i ended up going way over my points and that seemed to work for me. I dont tend to overload on drinking though... i nurse my drinks pretty good when i need to, this way it saves me money and points lol... Also i have a couple of friends who just like to go out with everyone and not drink so if i didnt want to drink i would be fine!!! But like i said i just havent wanted to go out... I think all this extra weight and since i was eating like crap i just dont have the self esteem or energy to go out... my friends are sooo cute and their bodies look soo much better than me.. .which makes me stick out in a bad way!!

so..... i ended up just staying in and eating chinese take out... noooooo i didnt go off i had steamed dumplings 7 points for 4 of them and eggdrop soup 1 point a cup... the egg drop is soooo good when i have cravings because the egg part substitutes the noodles in the soup for me... another choice i get sometime is steamed chicken, broccili and onions with szechuan sauce on the side... thats realllyy good and low in points... I am a hugeee fan of porkfried rice.... sooo it was a challenge for me not to get it anymore but i kept focus and told myself nothing tastes as good as skinny feels :)!! My weightwatchers leader alwayss used to say that.... even though i dont go to the meetings anymore i still remember certian phrases :) its good to have something to try to motivate you everyday to keep you on track!!!


Signing Out,
Carbaholic Girlie!

Friday, February 3, 2012

DAY 3!!!!




Day 3 was kind of busy for me- but I like busy! It was also Groundhog's day... which i cant believe that the groundhog saw its shadow!!!


So my knee and ankle both still hurt from the fall... it actually hurts more than when it happened! Hopefully this weekend will get better!!!


I was suppose to go to a local bar for karoake with my friends but i opted out that because i knew i didnt want to drink any alcohol, i was tired, and my MEATBALL came over- best friend for 11 years who everyone thinks she looks like Deena and everyone else used to think i looked like snooki when she was bigger and i was alot smaller... lol we both went opposite direction.. They also call us Deena and Snooks because they way we act. I am not by any means a girl who sleeps with every guy and neither is my friend!! We get eachother like no one else does and usually when i go places people say i can make anything a party or a fun time...So we call eachother our meatball... But yeah anywayysssss.... she came over  and i made dinner which was sso good and then we watched jersey shore!

Getting back on the diet made me realized how much i miss cooking.. i love it!!! Everyone always loves when i cook... my mom though is my biggest judge... she is sooo pickyyy! But in my dish i used tofu shiratke.. They are the bessttttt invention for a carbaholic like me... only 20 calories per serving and 3 CARBS... and if you cook it right they taste justtt like regular noodles... you need to open the package and drain it veryyy good then pat it dry with a paper towel and microwave it for about a minute.. Once you microwave it you need to cook it with whatever sauce it is that you are making... this will allow it to take on the flavor of the sauce... make sure you let it soak and warm up in the sauce for a decent amount of time... try a noodle for taste... it should not have a funky taste  or smell to it! Ive cooked it sometimes where i didnt drain it enough so it didnt taste great!



But anyways i made a chicken with some soy sauce, white wine, deli mustard, paprika, garlic and onion powder... and the vegetables i used was white onion, garlic, red peppers, and mushrooms. I fried the chicken up without using any kind of oil or butter just the sauce. I then took the chicken out and cooked up the vegetables for a little bit in the sauce and slowly warmed up the noodles with it....

But yeah it was delicious!!!!

So, i was having a little withdraws from carbs and soup but those noodles really did the trick... i couldnt believe i actually felt like that after only 3 days!

Another issue i had was i thought i had 5 points left and tried to figure out what i could eat when i am so full because i didnt have time for much snacking yesterday and dinner was only like 7 points so yeah.. i finally figured out and ate my points... realizing i really only had 1 point left!! so i was sooooo disappointed!!!!

That was my day though and i am not poisting my weightloss until tuesday night... because i want one number for the whole week!!!




Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie


Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Second Day Back ON!!!





Today was good!!! I was peeing all day and in my mind  im thinking...YESS GOODBYE WATER WEIGHT lol!!!!!  When getting back hard it is always hard to eat all of your points... and i have more points than i ever had before: 44!!!


So i didnt end up going to the gym last night but i was looking up motivations to exercise, one that i found on a few websites was to reward yourself after x amount of times working out and biggest loser this season is no excuses- the excuse of the week was like i have too much to loose... which is def how i feel... but if i dont go on i will have more to loose...

Today as i was leaving work for the day, i fell in the parking lot (since it was dark) and skinned my knee, twisted my ankle, and my phone flew out of my hand... so yeah no working out for me tonight!!!


Another thing is my friends put up pictures on facebook from this weekend and i could NOT believe how horrible i looked in them like i am sooooo embarassed and mortified... especially because i thought i looked cute!!!! At least i can have a good starting weight picture/ motivating picture!


I had a wonderful day as far as eating good stuff... One thing that was good was the progressive soup light  new england clam chowder.... but make sure you stop and stir the soup about 2-3 times will its cooking, i also had some turkey pepperoni:17 pieces are 2 points and its another good muncher with a mozzarella stick... sooo good!!! Another thing that I did today oppose to yesterday was I ate alot of points before i even left for work this way i wasnt trying to search for food at night!!!















Anywayssss i am exhausteddd so goodnight :)
Carbaholic Girlie

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

MY JOURNEY OF 160LBS WEIGHT LOSS STARTS NOW!!







So today I started back on. It turns out that I ended up gaining every single pound back including a couple extra pounds and I am at 294.4 lbs. I was sooooo upset about how close to 300lbs I am... I have never and will never be 300lbs.  So that gave me alot of motivation! Also my mom is only 8lbs more than me which is another motivation because I am not letting her become less than me!!!! I want her to suceed and do well but I just can never bare the fact that she could possibly weigh less than me, so I will just push myself extra hard and encourage her along her journey because we both have a longgggggg way to go together!

Even though I just started today, I already feel soo much better. I started taking my vitamins again- i bought the gummy kind and they actually taste good!- so that could be a reason why. Also, I like knowing that I am losing weight and not gaining it!! Plus, i like planning and organizing my food plan for the day- to me it's kind of like a game. I always think about what good things can I eat today to add to my points that will benefit me or that I must eat. By having that mind set it will make it possible for me NOT to fall off the wagon again. On Weight Watchers you are allowed to eat anything that you crave as long as you dont have it everyday, don't overload on it, and you have the points for it. This is great because when I have a weak moment I do not need to make it into a weak entire meal or day in that matter!

Another thing i love about eating healthy is the FOODD!! For breakfast I had a banana, protien shake, and a tablespoon of peanut butter- 6 points and I got 2 calciums in... If I was still under 250lbs it would be all the calcium I needed for the day- I will probably have a cup of milk later! Also i snacked on this AMAZING hummus ( I eat hummus almost everyday when I am on program) that was a very spicy hummus by Sabra (sp?) (I loveee spicy!) with carrots... 2 tablespoons is 2 points... soo yummy... and is a good thing you can munch on for awhile... I also had a cup of Blueberry Green tea (my favoriteee) this morning. And a salad with roastbeef on top with 2 tsps of olive oil combined with a no calorie no sugar fat free ranch dressing and tons of veggies for lunch. Let me tell youuuu, this salad made me soooo fulll i had a stomach acheeee after- I was SHOCKED! I just had an apple and emerold's cocoa roasted almonds 100 cal pack... Another greattt treat.  For dinner I am going to make some kind of veryy lean ground chicken meat with concuction- not quite sure what maybe just a burger?













But yeah so I am kind of struggling with if I should go to the gym or not... I feel like I am wayyyy to big now to be on the machines and everyone will stare at me plus this time of year the gym is extra packed... Also I am saying to myself to wait to start exercising when my weightloss begins to slow down. Butttt on the other side, I feel like am I just making excuses up and I am going on vacation to Cancun in July for my cousins wedding... so I want to loose alot of weight by then! But I am also so exhausted today.. don't have sweatpants or good sneakers... because recently all of my stuff was stolen!! long story- dont want to talk  about it!!! So I need to at least buy some sweats! idk!! So yeah that's my first day which I think was pretty succesful food wise and we will see how the week goes :)

Signing out
Carbaholic Girlie

Monday, January 30, 2012

Twas' The Night Before The Diet!

Hey Everyone!!!



So...... Here's my weightloss pre-story in a nutshell!!



Im 24 years old  and have never been completely skinny! I have ALWAYS been overweight!
Growing up I was always into sports with school and the YMCA and most of my teen years- I was just chubby. A year and a half ago I weighed 218lbs... having lost 68lbs lbs- I was a weightloss machine. I trailed off my preferred diet (Weight Watchers) and was only suppose to be "off" for my birthday week. But then it led to: I dont want to see how much weight I gained so I will just try extra hard the next week and not weight in. but then seeing the weight that I gained and not getting the results I wanted made me discouraged! Then eating unhealthy eventually just became a natural thing that i didnt even think about anymore because i wanted to eat what i wanted to eat, and HOW much i wanted to... so I trailed off for a year and a half and am pretty sure I gained all my weight back! I am a very short girl only 5 ft 1 and almost 300 lbs- like that's crazy! I am a fashionable, popular, smart, fun loving girl and I get discouraged because almost ALL of my friends have the perfect body and can eat and drink whatever they want. But they do all go to the gym and eat less than me!

I am just sick of being the fat girl of my group, or the girl with the pretty face having the creepers who come up to me while we are out but not the hot guy that everyone notices. I mean I do get attention from guys being that I am SINGLE and young, but not like my friends. It's almost embarassing when we go out- Do they notice HOW much bigger I am then them in pictures- and we do take ALOT of pictures??? do they notice what kind of guys talk to me most of the time? Or I will get that type of guy who is embarassed that he likes or talks to me so he won't tell his friends about it and it will never get anywhere- is it because they have some kind of secret fetish or something? 

After gaining all my weight back  this time, I have the lowest self-esteem ever. i am sick at the fact that I let my body get this way AGAIN and its harder to look cute in any kind of outfit- if i can even find an outfit. I have no choice anymore but to shop at plus size stores unless i want underwear or accesories- which i absolutely LOVVEEE accesories!



So this it, this time I am doing this for myself- my health, my future and present life, and hopefully along the way it will help me find my future husband!



I am lucky though, I am not doing this alone- i have my mom doing this weightloss journey with me! She is just as overweight as I am and has been my whole life... so by me doing this i know she will be motivated by me and vice versa!

Tomorrow morning, we will weigh in to get our offical starting weight and weigh in weekly on Tuesday Mornings! So this weekend I ate and drank what i wanted, todays i had my last unhealthy foods so i can get it all in now lol! I  am  SO excited to start but def  not looking forward to see my weight :( but I got to face reality!



So  diet and gym membership that i havent used in 6 months here I come!




Signing out,
Carbaholic Girlie